Right now my life is moving towards big things, and this terrifies me because it means I'm going to have to do big things. I've been reading books about how people are doing monumental, kingdom-building things, and I'm just sitting here in the land between point A and B. I'm so
BUT...then I realize: This isn't about me! And that blows my mind. All my life I've been so conceited, thinking everything was about how my life turned out, and ultimately what happens in the story of me. And yes, this makes me sound like a spoiled little brat, and essentially, that's what I am. I failed to realize, and sometimes I still fail to realize that this is the story of God. He's in control of what happens. Past. Present. Future. This is so comforting because all that is required on my part is faith and trust. I don't have to be constantly worrying about what my life will look like in 5 years, because it's already taken care of. Even when I feel so inadequate, God is more than enough to cover all my inadequacy. I've been hearing my pastor say this a lot lately:
This has become more real to me lately as I take on things that seem over my head. But then I remember:"God doesn't call the qualified; He qualifies the called."
"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong." II Corinthians 12:9-10
And there is nothing more real than that.
P.S. And because I like music, here's a video! :)
