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So I've been thinking about tons of things lately. My mind has been pulled in like a million different directions, and I've been sooo stressed. Like seriously stressed. I begin worrying about all these millions of things that actually aren't really that important anyway when I look at the bigger picture. I have a feeling that God is trying to tell me something. =) Like maybe I should stop worrying about my million problems. Because maybe, you know, He's actually in control of my life. And maybe I should just let him take control of everything that's happening. Because well he actually KNOWs whats going on, and honestly, I can't even find my shoes in morning! And my problems...well when I actually think about it, my problems seem so little compared to like poverty, starvation, and all these huge problems that leave huge impacts on people around the world. I don't even know. I feel so selfish when I look at it like that. I feel so incredibly blessed when I see it like that. Because well, I am. =) These lyrics below are from a song (obviously ;) ) but I feel like this is a sticky note or something like that from God reminding me of...well HIM. =)

While you were sleeping, while the world was dreaming
I never left your side and I can promise I won’t be leaving
I watch you breathing, I hear you singing
I feel your heartbeat and I know everything that you’re feeling

I am the comfort when you are afraid
I am the refuge when you call my name
I was, I’ll be, I am
I am the future, I am the past
I am the first, and I am the last
I was, I’ll be, I am

I know you’re broken, you’re busted wide open
You’ve fallen to pieces and you feel there’s nothing left you can hope in
But I’ll hold you together, we’ll stand the weather
Cause I paid the price for you and I won’t let you go, no never

I am the comfort when you are afraid
I am the refuge when you call my name
I was, I’ll be, I am
I am the future, I am the past
I am the first, and I am the last
I was, I’ll be, I am

I am the father, I am the son
I am the spirit, and I am the one
I was, I’ll be, I am
I wore the thorns, and I took the nails

I am love and love never fails
I was, I ‘ll be, I am.
~I Am~ ~Finding Favour~

GOD IS AHHHMAZING!!! (just saying ;) )

Family ♥

So this weekend was my dad's birthday on the 28th. Happy Birthday Dad!! We went to visit my brother at college, so we could be together for his birthday. We went to Applebee's, and my dad got this ginormous bowl of ice cream, and of course the singing waiters (sometimes i feel a lil sorry for them...sometimes :) ) And I got these spicy meatball things, and oh man, they were spicy. I had about one and half before I gave up and drank all of my drink...and my mom's. ;) I was just writing this to say how much I love my family, 'cause they're amazing. I'm so happy God put me here, because I don't think I could be anywhere else. =)

New Beginnings

So.....it's been awhile...like 2 years! =) I was just going to delete my blog and make a whole new one, but then I read them, and they brought back memories and made me laugh. (Goodness, that was a run-on sentence...my english teacher would reprimand me for that one.) =) Sometimes I look on old stuff that I write, especially in my journal, and I think that I was a totally different person then. But then again, it's still me, but now, I have a little more added on: experiences, wisdom (I hope), and years. So yes those posts from forever ago will stay. :) But I am starting over with this. This post will be the first post of my new beginning. I'm doing this writing thing for me, because its easier for me to process things happening in my life when I write about them. Life seems at least a little less stressful for me if I can analyze it a little. But if someone is reading this, its not like I'm writing in a diary...well it kinda is, but its different. It'd be like if you caught your little sister reading your diary, but then you didn't really care cause it just has senseless ramblings about nothing really important to her. It's not like I'm gonna write...I love "fill in the blank" because well first I don't have a person of interest, and second, who wants to write sappy love notes all the time? seriously... well anyway, this post was completely full of rambling about nothing really, and I promise the next post will make more sense, because I won't be completely and utterly tired.